I am tired of trying. I am tired of people. I am tired of pain. I am tired of people with pain. Call me “mean” but I run into a lot of these “silent” patients with chronic pain that complain a lot. They look at me. “Oh. You are handling cancer so well. I’m in pain all the time, you’re so lucky.” Guess what- I’m in pain too. Difference is I don’t let it stop me. I don’t complain. Maybe if I Did I’d have more followers, or a bigger pay check or someone that wanted to be with me on this journey? Instead I keep moving. I am determined. I am a manager in a top company. I walk 5-7 miles daily. I get stronger by the day. Yoga, inversions, handstands, paddle boarding and swimming are my equilibrium. Can you keep up? I might be ugly, I might be old, and my body might be misshapen, but I’m not dead. And I’m not going away. Get used to it. You can’t ignore me forever.